STRESSFUL!

So I would like to update family and friends that are far away and may not know what is going on in my life. If you do not want gross details than do not read on. I am 14 weeks pregnant.Last Monday night, the 5th, I woke up in the middle of the night to use the restroom and I was bleeding. I was not able to sleep the rest of the night and I was just waiting to be able to call the doctor and get in to see him. Well it took 3 hours for the nurse to call me back and she did want me to make an appointment. So we got a last minute babysitter because I wanted Brian there in case everything was not okay. We talked with the doctor and he wanted to listen for the heart beat. It took him literally over 5 minutes to find it. I was really freaking out. But he found it and said that it was strong so to take it easy and that is was probably just an irritated cervix. Well I guess he needed to be more specific about taking it easy because I can not just sit around and do nothing so I had a pretty normal week except for the crazy amount of bleeding. Several nights I woke up in pools of blood. But during the day it was always just spotting and he said I would only need to come in if I filled 2 pads in 1 hour,so I did not call the doctor again because I knew I would see him the following Monday.

So, I decided it would be fun to go Ice Skating on Saturday. I guess since I felt so normal and there was no pain, it just didn't hit me that this could be serious. I felt so good and I thought it was an irritated cervix like the doctor thought. So we stupid decided to go ice skating which was very exhausting and very fun. The kids had a blast! (I thought I turned this picture, but I do not want to mess with is anymore)

But that night (we were at Brian's parents house too) I woke up to being completely covered in blood (skip the details if you want, here they are: I mean soaked through an over night pad. Everything I was wearing was completely red and I had to walk to the bathroom while holding my pant leg closed at the bottom because blood was running down my legs and out the bottom of my pants, gross I know but I have to let my extended family know all the details, sorry!) So I was so upset and bawling never thinking that ice skating could have done this to me. So It was a horrible weekend. Luckily Monday was a holiday so Brian was home and we had another Friend (thanks Kietra!) watch the kids while we went to the doctor again.

I was really anxious about this doctor visit and when we got there the financial person wanted to talk with us. That was so annoying because that took about 45 minutes and I just wanted to see the doctor. Finally we got in there and we talked for a while and he was trying to find the heart beat and he could not find it. This was too much! So he finally said, "This is just making us all more stressed out so lets go have an ultra sound!" Good Idea. So I got dressed as fast as I could and we ran out the door. He tried to make small talk while he was getting it all ready (annoying) and then we started looking. We saw a baby but did not see the flicker of the heart beat and then.... the baby started moving all around. I broke down in tears of joy. We were able to see the heart beat and it was still strong which was a very good sign the doctor actually sounded surprised that the baby was hanging in there so well and so strong. I am so glad that we had an ultra sound because we found out that I did not just have an irritated cervix, My placenta is actually separating and there were little pockets of blood all surrounding the area. He said that this could be okay but I am not out of the woods yet. He said that activity could progress this separation and so I am officially on bed rest this week. I am at least glad that he was more specific. I actually asked him what he meant so that Brian and I could hear it because I can't lay around when I feel so fine because I feel lazy and like People would expect me to clean and cook and things like that. So I asked him specifically if I should still babysit the little boy that I watch (he said absolutely not!) and what else he wanted me to do. He said that I need to be down and little to no activity including with my kids. So Here I am on bed rest (which is so hard because outward I feel fine I just have to keep reminding myself that things are not fine inside) My wonderful sister-in-law called me yesterday and wanted to take my kids for a few days so I am sure they are having a blast with her and their cousins at Brian's parents house. My good friend Kietra stocked me up with books and I am making my self lay and read or watch movies all day. This peace and quiet is amazing and I feel like a don't deserve it. I am very relaxed and just pray that everything will go well. So basically I am just a little stressed out and have been for over a week now. I go back to the doctor on Monday and I promise the next post will not be so long.