Mother's Day

Instead of getting a restful, luxurious, "let's spoil Mom" kind of day I found myself getting to take another approach. I got to have the kind of Day that makes Mother's Day so important. The kind of Day that makes me appreciate all that my own Mother sacrificed and did for me because she loved me and was selfless. The kind of Day that reminds me that no matter what, I am first and foremost a MOM.

I love my kids so much, So much that is just breaks my heart and makes me cry when they are hurt or suffering. I thought this Mother's day was going to be stellar because I only had two of my children at home and one takes a nap and the other is very very good to me. However, Cooper woke up this morning just moaning and crying and visibly uncomfortable. He only wanted to be held and soothed. I thought this was very out of sorts but couldn't over look the obvious discomfort and discontent so i weighed my options. Could I really skip church with my obligations? addie would be devastated not to sing to me, it is all she has talked about all week and she kept asking when Mothers Day was so she could sing. Could i really leave the YW all alone or ask someone not in YW to fill in for me? I was the only member of the YW presidency that was going to be at church today and so If I didn't go there would be no one to teach the YW. Brian was out of town so he could not stay home with him. What should I do? I could not find the thermometer so I had no idea what his temp was, all I knew was he was lethargic and moaning and warm. So I went. I really didn't think he was sick with a contagious thing, I just figured he had a fever and 3 molars trying to come in. So in sacrament meeting he layed his head on my chest for a good 15 minutes and then the moaning started and then the fussing started so I had to take him out. We paced the halls the whole second hour and he did not want to be let down. My plan was to hold him and walk back and forth at the front of the room to teach my lesson but by third hour he was just a constant cry/whine and because the nature of the lesson this week was very important I just couldn't get the lesson out in the right manor so I excused myself and left the girls alone for a few minutes while I went and found my friend Kietra to see if she could cuddly him. Of course he went right to sleep for her (something he would never do for me). I finished my lesson and on the way home he fell asleep again and slept for two hours. when he woke up from his nap I had found the thermometer and took his temp and it was 103.5 degrees. The poor kid was beside himself. he would not even move, just wanted to sit on my lap and moan. the only time he was not making a noise was when he was having a bottle which he sucked down each time so i don't think he is dehydrated. So we sat on the couch together without moving for a good 2 hours while Addie tried to get us things that we needed and things that we didn't need. she is such a sweetie. You would think that all that sitting in one place would have been a great rest on Mother's day but listening to a low whine for two hours straight with no way to comfort is very draining. I am exhausted and concerned. I hurt that I can't help my little sweetie man feel better and I wish i could take the fever and sweat it out tonight instead of him. Baths, popsicles, cool wash clothes, lots of love... nothing seems to help. I put him to bed 1 1/2 hours ago and he has all ready woken up 3 times crying. I still don't know what is wrong. My guess is that between the immunizations on Thursday and the white swollen gums where three molars are coming in, his body is just reacting with a high temp. My heart aches and I know that all you mothers can relate to the feelings that I am having. I know that Moms can comfort, love, reassure, and soothe. I know that Moms do WHATEVER it takes to soothe a suffering child. I know that amongst all my troubles today I was able to realize my blessings and be so thankful that I don't have to go through things alone, just like my kids don't have to. I was able to realize how blessed I am to have cooper and cherish those moments that I could just cuddle and cuddle with him. I was able to see how sweet and concerned and helpful and loving a big sister can be. I was able to see how important the role of a mother is and I am so thankful that I have been blessed with such an important role. Happy Mother's Day!!